it is december now

We wander where we are in life so often.We ask ourselves how did we get here, where will we end up in the next 5 years, 10 years, 20 years?It seems to go by in the blink of an eye, this time thing.It is 8 days until I step onto a plane and fly back to the motherland.It is december and I do not know how I got here.It all moved so fast, and yet it all seems to have happened such a long time ago.The only constant seems to be the gradual cold that creeps in each night, and the hunger for more of understanding God.The desperation to know Him so much more has grown and grown, and the want for Him above all else sits in me now, like a tiny seed pushing through the crappy soil begging to be seen.It shouts out trying to be louder than all the other voices in my head...and now it is beginning to become louder; the loudest and most constant."Get to know Him, keep your eyes on Him!" it screams out at me as I struggle my way through winter tiredness and all the changes.It's december now, september to november left so fast..and yet everything has changed, and it is beautiful.I would promise to write more, but I don't know if I will.So Merry Christmas if I don't write before, and a Happy 2015 too.R/